Archive for January, 2013

God, I Still Loved My Dear

January 17, 2013

Dear God.

Im writing to express myself.
I know I have always hurt my dear each time my dear hurts me.

I never expected time changes everything.

In the midst of anger.
My dear didnt know deep inside I want to change everything.
I hope and prayed for the better.

But reality states otherwise.
Youve changed.
Youve found a new one.
Deep in my heart, I truly cannot accept it.
But what am I?
I am just an ordinary human with weakness.

Dear God.
I regretted what has happened.
Sweet and sour memories played in my brain almost everyday.
I woke up in shock hoping my dear would have messaged me.
Hoping my dear would have called me.
But then it was me chasing after my dear the whole way.

Dear God.
I prayed there will be that last chance.
For us to be together again.
For me to feel the love, the care, the feeling of having someone by my side again.
For my heart still hopes for the best.
But my eyes and ears heard and saw otherwise.

Dear God.
You are the Almighty One.
You are the Most Forgiving and Caring One.
You are the listener of all cries, all hopes, all dreams of your creations.
I truly hope you can give me that one more chance.
Show me your guidance, help return my dear to me one more time.
Guide me to take better care the next time.

For now, everytime I prayed to you.
Or finding peace.
My tears flowed out itself.
My heart ached badly.
And the silent prayer speaks inside of me.

Dear God.
I seek your forgiveness.
I seek your guidance.
I seek your acceptance to fulfill my prayer.
To have my lover back in my arms once more.
For I really hoped for that.

God’s Willing I hope my prayer will be answered.

My dear, I am truly sorry. I really needed you badly. I really needed you in my life again.
Please give me one more chance.
Deep inside of you.
I know you recalled the moment we were together.
I prayed God will open your heart one more time.
To accept me.